There will be always a few questions which will you would remain unanswered.

How was I feeling that day. I was very much rest less why? Because a girl who was my girlfriend 4 months back texted me over phone and said she has to talk something… I won’t go in much detail but all you need to know is she said ” she loves someone else”.

I was shattered.. I said I won’t come in between.. and I just hung up. She didn’t call me back , so I took all stuff which she gave me earlier (gift) and took my bite and I dashed to her home and called her. She didn’t pick up this time. I called her mom and gave my packet to her. She was calling me in but I refused I said I have to go somewhere else.

I was having so many sucidal thoughts in my head. I wanted to go some quite place and cry hard their. Instead I came in my room and took a sort nap. I was feeling so bad. So I called her. She didn’t pick up phone. I called her mom again and said aunty can you please tell her to call me back she said ok. I will dear.

I had one friend to whom I could have discuss all his stuff. His name was chintan so I called him. He said you should try to fix stuffs between you two.. and just then she called me..I talked to her and she was so numb but she was talking like she is still in love with him. But since I was in relationship with her for like 4 years. I didn’t want to let her go this easily.

I talked to her and asked her if she loves me.. she was not saying anything. She was confused and so numb.she gave her phone to her mother and I talked to her for like an hour and she took phone afterwards and she didn’t talked to me much and she hung up.

Should I let her go?? Even if I loved her more than anything in this world for like 4 years And she had feelings for someone else…

When she went she left a empty space inside and me and and she was in there for like 3 and half years and now I am trying to feel that space with something else which I can’t no matter how hard I try..

Am just affraid if I will keep myself in love with her and habitual of listening her voice, i won’t be able to handle it during my exams. So am tryin my best to stay away from her. Because she made a choice of which am also facing the consequences.

I can ruin it and blame on her for my entire like that I love her and she ruined it.

In my family we all see each other’s mistakes..just because someone did something wrong doesn’t mean I got the authority to currect that person.. or teach him a lessons..

Everyone is thinking as per his level of consciousness and they do what they think. You can’t force anyone else to change or be better but to youself.

Your surroundings will be originated from and and you will be the core of everything that exists all arround you.

If you know you re living your life as you want to..

There is no other reason you need to be happy..

You always strong enough to take just one step and All it takes is just one step.

Everyone is just best of what he can do, you just do the same.

Everything is possible at anytime. Just do what it takes .

Love and sex are among best emotions that I have experienced

No matter how hard they try.. eventually everyone will do some good for you…

My mom came to me asked me several times if I will eat food or not and again and again… I must be arround her… I hurt her miserably… I don’t know what am doing.. but I am not doing right with her..

Seems like am adding more to buy a ticket of hell..

Just because I couldn’t handle some negetive outrageous snap towards me.. I take revenge.. on the name of teching a lesson.. because I want others to be better. What if I just accept what they are now and expect nothing from them..

Then it will be love, because what exists now isn’t love. It is but it’s lost somewhere… To find it back you have to accept her as she is..

Am cooking on my own I said to my grandmother loudly ” whoever comes between me and my exam I won’t care if he dies.. and my mother is dead to me…”

My mother took a bit, because she was trying to digest these words but she failed and she brust into tears and she called dad and she didn’t say any thing to me this time.. but I was able to hear she was saying to my dad “how bad he is talking” and she was sad and weeping.

Seeds of more desirable crops am having… Mere ko exam clear krna he chahe uske lie mere ko sare relation chhodne pde sara income sb kuch

When I needed my mother most she left me. When I needed my girlfriend most she left me for suffering. And the Anger I am holding with in is making me crazy.

I don’t know how to react because they are gone.. and I was in so much pain for last 2 month.. I wasted very crucial time of my life in suffering. And that’s ok because my mother’s prays a lot for that so may be I deserve some suffering you know. I want to cry a bit but I can’t because I was soo lost in sorrow for a month that I can’t

today my father said your mom and sister wants to come home will you go to receive them. I said no. Because I accepted they won’t come and no body is there for me it’s my life wheather I die or whatever but they are coming back..

I don’t wanna see my mom again.. she said I called her prostitute. Am just done you know. I wanna forgive her but I just don’t want anyone. Yes I miss my mom and girlfriend but it’s ok I will never see them again।।

I want to accept them but the way they made me suffer I just can’t get back things to normal। Or should i। Or should I just commit suicide..

I am so numb and lost.

Thanks for joining me!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton