When I needed my mother most she left me. When I needed my girlfriend most she left me for suffering. And the Anger I am holding with in is making me crazy.
I don’t know how to react because they are gone.. and I was in so much pain for last 2 month.. I wasted very crucial time of my life in suffering. And that’s ok because my mother’s prays a lot for that so may be I deserve some suffering you know. I want to cry a bit but I can’t because I was soo lost in sorrow for a month that I can’t
today my father said your mom and sister wants to come home will you go to receive them. I said no. Because I accepted they won’t come and no body is there for me it’s my life wheather I die or whatever but they are coming back..
I don’t wanna see my mom again.. she said I called her prostitute. Am just done you know. I wanna forgive her but I just don’t want anyone. Yes I miss my mom and girlfriend but it’s ok I will never see them again।।
I want to accept them but the way they made me suffer I just can’t get back things to normal। Or should i। Or should I just commit suicide..
I am so numb and lost.
lifespan 